Through the Eyes of the Inexperienced

Through the Eyes of the Inexperienced

Here I present the experiences and thoughts that God has given me. Hopefully as you read these stories, thoughts, and prayers, God will change you, just as he is changing me. I hope this blog can be a blessing to you as I share with you my journey.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Eagerness to Learn


One thing that is really different about Rwanda is the people and their eagerness to learn. I don’t know if all of Rwanda is like this, but all the staff and all the kids here and all the kids at outreach are so eager to learn. “They want to study hard to please God” as one kid put it. It’s so weird, I walked into a room and the kids looked at me and in their cute little accents went, “teach us Gwen, we don’t understand, teach us”, granted they were working on this really difficult math problem that I had no idea how to solve, but still just the idea that they long to be taught is just crazy to me. After going to public school, and growing up with no real appreciation of education, the idea of kids wanting to learn is really strange. One thing I have been thinking about lately is how we take advantage of our education in the United States. We don’t even appreciate the fact that every kid gets an education. At school in America, the kids don’t try hard, the kids just goof of and hope to pass. Here the kids at school work so hard so that they can succeed and get good jobs later in life. They have this goal in their minds, that if they do well in school, they will do well in life. I wish I had tried harder in school. I wish I had learned things, like really learned things, not just so I could pass the test, but so that I can remember and use the knowledge I learned in my everyday life. I had this bad habit of memorizing for the test and then forgetting it. The idea of actually learning the material was not something I had the motivation to do.

 I like it though. I wish that I had had that kind of eagerness to learn. I also wish that Christians had that kind of eagerness to learn about God. Another thing that the kids do here is get up at 6am for Saturday devotions. Granted not all the kids seem super enthusiastic about it that early in the morning, but some of the kids are awake before the staff for this and they start banging on their drums to wake everyone up in eagerness to get started. That’s just crazy to me. I am not a morning person, I never have been and the idea of waking up at 6 in the morning on a Saturday is not pleasant to me, but they are doing it for God. They are waking up early to worship God, which is so right. When I go back to the States I will not be waking up at 6 in the morning on Saturdays to worship God, but when I have my daily quiet time I will never forget the enthusiasm and zeal that the kids approached their devotions with. I want to be that enthusiastic about spending time alone with God. I want to get to the point where all I can’t wait to get up and get started worshiping God.

I think there is something so Biblical about being eager to learn. God gave us incredibly powerful brains, and we would be so much smarter and innovative if we just tried.  What if we saw learning as an opportunity instead of a necessity?  What if we looked forward to all the opportunities God gave us to learn whether It be about him, or about life, and recognized how blessed we are to have those opportunities? I don’t know about you, but I know my life and my attitude would be so much different.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

For God's Glory


It’s kind of crazy to look back at this past week/ year and see how God has put everything into place just for this day, for this moment. Everything this past year and these past few years has been leading up to this day, this moment, this next hour I will spend with the kids. All the classes I took, all the presentations I gave, all the letters I wrote, all the meetings with my mentor, all the prayers I prayed, they were all for this. They were all ways of God preparing me for this internship. Even here in Rwanda, every time a kid touches me, or waves at me. Every smile, it’s all for something bigger, something greater than that miniscule moment. It’s all for God’s glory. Every time I help Yankurishia pick through beans, it all for God’s glory. God’s gonna use all these moments for something big. Even when I was trying to learn Kinyrwanda with the kids. Every term they wrote down, every passing of the pen, was helping toward building relationships.  Every time they laugh at me because I have no idea what I am doing, it is all for some greater purpose. Now that I worked with them on learn Kinyrwanda, even though I don’t remember everything they taught me they see me differently, with more interest, more respect, they are friendlier. Everything I do with them gives them more perspective of who I am, and eventually, hopefully, it will lead to a better perspective of who God is. It’s crazy how God uses every little moment for his glory, for a greater purpose then just learning a subject at school. Everything I learned in class, I have to put into practice here.  I am so regretting not bringing my hermeneutics notes. Every time I learn or word or talk with a kid, my relationship with them strengthens, and God uses that stronger relationship later when I am teaching them, they listen better, they listen with more respect. Every smile, every time I sweep the kitchen out while they watch me, it’s all for something bigger. It’s crazy how every little thing, every little moment is for something more. So whenever I feel in a rut or I feel like I am just wasting time, I know that I just need to be patient and see how God is going to use this miserable moment for something greater, for His glory.

"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. " Romans 8:18